Journal1

Minerva Marin

Journal #1

     First of all I think that everybody needs to have or use some types of defense mechanisms. I think that the two defense mechanisms I use the most are reaction formation and denial. I tend to use reaction formation in a way that most people wouldn’t be able to recognize it. I use this in order to fit in sometimes. Sometimes I also use it for my own protection, because if someone tells me bad things about me and tries to get me feeling bad for being or doing what I do or have done I will more than likely act as if I didn’t wanted to do it so in others words I go against my own principles. The other type of defense mechanism that I honestly think that I almost always use id denial. I use denial on many occasions at home, at school, and almost everywhere when in the event that I don’t want to be seen as the one guilty of having done certain things. If I know that I have done something bad or wrong and my parents catch me I will deny it because I don’t want to get punished. I would really want to try to star using the intellectualization defense mechanism. I would love to because I will be able to think of things in a way avoiding emotional feelings and won’t get hurt too much.

     There are also the neurotic needs. The two neurotic needs that I think I use the most are the neurotic need for affection and approval and also the neurotic need for self-sufficiency and independence. For affection and approval I tend to move toward others. I mostly do things in order to please others sometimes and in doing so I sometimes do very badly. By pleasing others I get into trouble at times and also later I realize that I just do it to fit in and to meet others expectations about me. I am a very afraid person. I am afraid of others when they get angry and mad, it maybe that they are not mad at me but I just can’t help it to be brave at those times and another thing is that I don’t like to be around rude people. I can’t play rude on others and neither can I accept that someone is rude at me. I just don’t like it because I am very sensitive and get sad rapidly. Neurotic need for self sufficiency and independence I also think that this is much like me since when I am in problems I really don’t like to ask for help because I am afraid that the person to whom I ask for help won’t want to help me. I rather prefer to be alone most of the times. When with friends I don’t really talk too much. Am a person that enjoys to be alone majority of the time. I like being alone because I have chance to reflect on the things I have done and also I am always wondering about thing that happen on a daily life.