Who I Am

Minerva Marin, Journal Entry.

WHO I AM

     My name is Minerva Marin, presently twenty years old and residing at my aunt’s house. Well I try to live my life as happy as I can and to do my very best always but there are sometimes that things just don’t go how I would like them to go. I was in a relationship just minutes ago and now I feel that I am all alone just some small things that I am not even sure if it was my fault or not, not that I am trying to blame things on others but I find it difficult to be me. I really like to be honest and want that others around me be honest too.  I am a responsible kind of person but now a day I just tend to forget things a lot and don’t know why. I don’t like to lie and as a matter of fact I can’t lie even though I am willing to do it I just can’t do it, and I thing that it is because of my good. From my parents I see forward to obtain love and care. Also I look for that from all my family members.  When it comes to my partner I want honesty, trustworthiness and loyalty. When I say something which I really would love to happen I mean it. I am not that much of an active person but I like sports and I am afraid of getting involved in it. I just love to watch football games as well as basketball games. Nevertheless I think that I am not good at it and don’t want to be embarrassed and that is the main reason for me not to get involved in sports.  I really think and am pretty sure that I hove a low self esteem because I can’t really tell my talents in fact, I don’t even think that I have talents because everything I do ends up being a disaster most of the time. Just to give an example I have been in two different relations and on both I end up hurt and losing. The only thing I am good at is at being alone and having intrapersonal communication. I love being alone and try to meditate and think of all the things that happen to me and try to find an answer to my questions. Another thing which I really enjoy doing is dealing with mathematical problems but my weakness is that as soon as I do a mistake I can’t solve the problem and if seek for help I would always end up getting myself confused. Am not that much of a patient person and I want that people have me patience, I see this wrong because why would I ask for patience when me myself don’t have it for others! Really I don’t understand myself at times! I think that some of my strengths is that I am kind to others and I would like to help others as soon as I have the opportunity to do so, that is one of the things my aunt does and I see her as a role model. She is the one that is presently paying me my education and she is good and cares for me. I really thing that to improve my weaknesses I would need a lot of help from others and especially have the courage to fight against them. I must always try to think positive and would want to become a better person. Actually my current role as a student is to do all my best, as a friend is to be friendly and try to guide my friends to keep aiming for what they want to achieve. My role as a family member is to make my family proud of my achievements and also to become who I want to be in order for them not to be ashamed of me. Well when it comes to roles with a partner I just want to say that I will try to tell thing straight to the point and be more serious than I actually am, also to try to really show my feelings and tell what I really think. I have learned that a partner is there to be with you in good and in the bad times. I will try to fight against all odds!! It will be for my happiness!! Think Positive!! And that thing and circumstances happen for one reason!!